I ain't a punching bag neither i am person who you could vent your anger on me.I admit i did things wrong but i didn't said you could link it up to my friends.When my mood gets good you always make my mood go down to the core.Due to my constantly burst of my handphone bill,you went way too far with your use your words on me and my friends.I tolerate it but i didn't admit a thing of what you have said and neither did i make you eat back your words.I know i am in no position to debate with since i am in the wrong and for 16 years you have been bringing me up,for all the things that i want you already had given me.

You said,"me and my groups of bastards friends gave you problems" i am sorry you are in the wrong to have even said that.The problem was only cause by me and not them.Yet i didn't give you the rights to insult my friends.They are friends who i decided to be with,without using your eyes to see them,you totally don't have the rights to give a comment or make up your own conclusion.I trust that i cherish my friends in my own way.

You only now how to mend into my problems but what about you and mum?have you even thought of solving the problem between you and her?When was the last time you even have a face to face conversation with her?When was the last time you came out of your study room,sat on the living room with us as a family to watch television or chat?When was the last time we even went out for dinner as a family?For all you know,you only know how to vent your anger.The words that you have spoken has no effect neither you show me the action that you have done.

You also scold me "Good for nothing" today but i also didn't admit neither i accept it.For the things i achieve in my life you,you and mum didn't agree.I admit that i am good for nothing only abit in my studes but not in other things.The reason why both of you disagree in the things i achieve it's because you all think that it has no help in the future.For the past few years,i won quite a number of medals yet both you didn't even praise me for it.This is one of things,as for the others i am lazy to say about it.Problems start occured through out all this years ,yet i doubt both of you even think about the solution.

Big sister left house when she was in Nafa.She couldn't stand mum and both of them start quarreling at midnight.In my mind i still could remember the scene after all this years.Second sister was also struggling in this family but luckily she made it through.She flunk her 'O' level and when to study in a private school.After she graduate from her private school,at first finding a job that she like was hard but as for now she found a stable job.She's not often in coming back to this house before 12.She's knows she will get nag from mum at her room and mum will nag and scold about the thing that she does.She always shut herself in her room,doing her own things.Great both of my sisters have place to hid but not me.

For what i believe there's no place for me to call home and i think both my sisters will agree with me.I prefer to help out in school,slack at the library or in my basketball training.Basketball is one of the things that i have devoted in.Yet,both of you went against it.I manage to pull through but it was always a issue for both of you to quarel with me.Both of you never thought of how i want my life to be.Both of you wanted me to the path that both of you choose and i hate that path.

I have my own stand currently.I did try to make it clear to both of you but i doubt both of you listen.Life is really complicated,yeah?When you treat others good,they will climb over your head they wouldn't know where's their limit.When you're flare up got angry with them,they will be angry and quarrel but at you.When a person does a good deed,he might end up being critisze by other people,it's the same as a bad person which has always been critisize by other people also.LIfe is just that unfair.As you grow older,you must have a better thinking and judgement.

People for what i have said above,I maybe in the wrong.I hate kids who doesn't think well.When times come,stop blaming everything on your parents,you have a part to play.If you think you're right,think again or change your point of view of thinking.Put your head in their shoes and think.If you're a grow up now,i believe you know what's right to do and what's wrong.

For those who have a warmth family,cherish it.When problems start to occured try to solve it as soon as possible so that things wouldn't break up.I believe there are still people out there with the same problem as me.I could only say,make your stand clear,have faith in what you're doing in your life,believe in the things that you're doing and don't regret it.Your mentality must also stay strong and cherish little things in your life.

I always can't sleep late at night and thought of the solution.I know the solution but i am lazy to execute it,funny eh?My problems is really complicated.I wish my life would end earlier as i it's really hard for me the see the sunshine and the sky is always so dark in my world.

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