I ain't a punching bag neither i am person who you could vent your anger on me.I admit i did things wrong but i didn't said you could link it up to my friends.When my mood gets good you always make my mood go down to the core.Due to my constantly burst of my handphone bill,you went way too far with your use your words on me and my friends.I tolerate it but i didn't admit a thing of what you have said and neither did i make you eat back your words.I know i am in no position to debate with since i am in the wrong and for 16 years you have been bringing me up,for all the things that i want you already had given me.

You said,"me and my groups of bastards friends gave you problems" i am sorry you are in the wrong to have even said that.The problem was only cause by me and not them.Yet i didn't give you the rights to insult my friends.They are friends who i decided to be with,without using your eyes to see them,you totally don't have the rights to give a comment or make up your own conclusion.I trust that i cherish my friends in my own way.

You only now how to mend into my problems but what about you and mum?have you even thought of solving the problem between you and her?When was the last time you even have a face to face conversation with her?When was the last time you came out of your study room,sat on the living room with us as a family to watch television or chat?When was the last time we even went out for dinner as a family?For all you know,you only know how to vent your anger.The words that you have spoken has no effect neither you show me the action that you have done.

You also scold me "Good for nothing" today but i also didn't admit neither i accept it.For the things i achieve in my life you,you and mum didn't agree.I admit that i am good for nothing only abit in my studes but not in other things.The reason why both of you disagree in the things i achieve it's because you all think that it has no help in the future.For the past few years,i won quite a number of medals yet both you didn't even praise me for it.This is one of things,as for the others i am lazy to say about it.Problems start occured through out all this years ,yet i doubt both of you even think about the solution.

Big sister left house when she was in Nafa.She couldn't stand mum and both of them start quarreling at midnight.In my mind i still could remember the scene after all this years.Second sister was also struggling in this family but luckily she made it through.She flunk her 'O' level and when to study in a private school.After she graduate from her private school,at first finding a job that she like was hard but as for now she found a stable job.She's not often in coming back to this house before 12.She's knows she will get nag from mum at her room and mum will nag and scold about the thing that she does.She always shut herself in her room,doing her own things.Great both of my sisters have place to hid but not me.

For what i believe there's no place for me to call home and i think both my sisters will agree with me.I prefer to help out in school,slack at the library or in my basketball training.Basketball is one of the things that i have devoted in.Yet,both of you went against it.I manage to pull through but it was always a issue for both of you to quarel with me.Both of you never thought of how i want my life to be.Both of you wanted me to the path that both of you choose and i hate that path.

I have my own stand currently.I did try to make it clear to both of you but i doubt both of you listen.Life is really complicated,yeah?When you treat others good,they will climb over your head they wouldn't know where's their limit.When you're flare up got angry with them,they will be angry and quarrel but at you.When a person does a good deed,he might end up being critisze by other people,it's the same as a bad person which has always been critisize by other people also.LIfe is just that unfair.As you grow older,you must have a better thinking and judgement.

People for what i have said above,I maybe in the wrong.I hate kids who doesn't think well.When times come,stop blaming everything on your parents,you have a part to play.If you think you're right,think again or change your point of view of thinking.Put your head in their shoes and think.If you're a grow up now,i believe you know what's right to do and what's wrong.

For those who have a warmth family,cherish it.When problems start to occured try to solve it as soon as possible so that things wouldn't break up.I believe there are still people out there with the same problem as me.I could only say,make your stand clear,have faith in what you're doing in your life,believe in the things that you're doing and don't regret it.Your mentality must also stay strong and cherish little things in your life.

I always can't sleep late at night and thought of the solution.I know the solution but i am lazy to execute it,funny eh?My problems is really complicated.I wish my life would end earlier as i it's really hard for me the see the sunshine and the sky is always so dark in my world.

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Ran a timing of 9.48 for my 2.4km.i still find it rather slow though,haha.I still need to improve more on my basketball,there's still one last competition for me to played for this year.Miss today e-maths lesson and went for a friendly match at 'CCAB'.In my heart i still feel quite gulity about not going to the lesson but too bad it has past already so let bygones be bygones.Got to touch up on my D&t journal and a english homework to do.

Signing off Hj ;]

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Had Social studies workshop for two days and i find it really useful.I'm tired these days so i doubt i will be posting everyday.Have to touch-up on my D&T journal,I am seriously running out of time.Thanks Mr loy for giving me some useful ideas i can jot it down on my journal.Time is really running out yet I am still like slacking everyday.I really hate Poa lesson,what to do?




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Today went to Marina Bay with sis and mum.First we went to the fish spa.It was quite fun.Can you imagine all the fish biting your leg,haha?After that I and sis went to shopshop while mum go do your foot massage.Went to Sakae Sushi for dinner,then went to 'Crocs'.BOth of them almost stay in that shop for 1hour.



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Tagged by Janielee.

1.Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
Cheeks.

2.How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
My head felt a bit dizzy and i am having sorethroat.

3.Who was the last person who you took picture with?
Yen zhan.Wen jie.gibson and hong leong.

4.Would you consider to be spoiled?
Yeah i am quite spoiled!

5.Would you ever donate blood?
Yes,i will.

6.Do you have a good friend of an opposite sex?
Yes,i do have one.

7.Do you want someone dead?
Not for the moment.

8.What does your last text msg says?
Coming.

9.What are you thinking of right now?
I am thinking of a person.

10.Did you wish someone was with you right now?
Kinda.

11.When did you go to sleep last night
2am.

12.Where did you bought your t-shirt that you are wearing right now?
I am wearing singlet.

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Yes,someone is on my mind right now!

14.Who was the last person who texted you?
Doelle Lim Lay Yin ;]

15.People tagged to do this quiz?
1)Doelle
2)Germin
3)Binbin
4)Hui cheng
5)Jing zhan
6)Conor
7)Shazalind
8)Kun Feng
9)Kenny
10)Amanda

16.Who is number 2 having a relationship with?
She's currently single.

17.Is 3 a female/male?
Female.

18.If 7 & 10 gets together will it be a good thing?
They are not lesbian for sure.

19.What is number 1 study about?
She studys A-mahts,E-maths,English,chinese,combined humanities,Science ;]

20.Is number 4 single?
Currently yes!

21.Say something about number 5?
Laugh and talk a lot!

22.What do you think of number 3 & 6 together?
It's totally impossible.She's older than him 3 years old.

23.Describe number 9?
He's a straight forward person and always played pool with me in the school library.

24.What will you do if number 6 & 7 fight?
In the first place they won't even fight.

25.Do you like number 8?
Kinda,haha.Always sitting beside me when it's chinese lesson!

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Don't think too much about the future but think for the present.Sorry,i think i was too rash making a decision that i shouldn't make right the from the start.Maybe i see things way too far yet i didn't notice that you were so close to me.Everything will remain the same as what we are now even when we took a step forward.I could assure you that my feelings towards you is truly real.Have faith will you?
P.S:Girl don't stress yourself ;]

People who know about my things maybe you will think negatively about me but to people who know me well enough you will know why suddenly things out like this.

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• Last Night

Went to attend my mother sister daughter wedding dinner.Felt a mild fever when they were serving the 5th or 6th dish.My head was spinning.

• Today

Almost can't get out of bed in the morning but in the end,i still got up went to school for the creative workshop.After that went to library to play pool and help out auntie anne with so errands.Got home now,going to Csc to hrelp coach be referee.Not bad yeah?fever still can run around,hahaha!

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Went for Fajar 3 on3 today.Won 3matches lose 5 matches.it's a great match anyway,hahaha.Holiday?oh it's no holiday for me,haha.Need to complete my homework,i know a lot of people will be surprise if they see this!



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Went to lot1 macdonalds today for breakfast but i never eat in the end,just went there to meet up with gibson they all.After breakfast,took a short distance walk to the choa chu kang stadium.
Congratulations to Basketball for running 2nd in the Cca relay & the Netballers for running 1st in the Cca relay.I won two medals as usual for every year,no more no less.One is the Cca relay and the other is Inter-house relay.Both got the 2nd.For 100m finals I was so...all thanks to Mr loy.do not wish to say about it.
After sports day went to lot1 to have lunch and went to south view basketball court.After i went home,bath and fly down to zhenghua csc.Today is a tiring day for me,shall not type anymore.TOmorow morning fajar 3 on 3 match ;]

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Things weren't looking too much for me.Result was bad for CA1 ,after holiday i guess is really studys time or maybe should i say after C boys competition.

Should i go for it?things are really getting complicated.one last time.

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Don't they look alike?Conor and jin zhan?

You guys know what?i notice my shoulder is one high one low recently!anyone know how to cure it?Coach went for re-service and i must coach the C-boys for their friendly match.Oh god,hope i can do it.Went to Csc just now and aftermath went to plaza with kenny.Intended to eat dinner at plaza but there are no place for us to sit so both of us decided to go Block 163 coffee shop which was just nearby.Too bad,there are also no sits there so we decided to to take-away and went to my block downstairs and eat.

As days go by I'm really thinking a lot.

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Today is really not my day.Complicated things happen.
I just want do things my own way.
I'm tired,i want a life of my own but there's still the 'O's.

People who see my blog,vote for me, thank you very much!Voting starts on 8th March ;]http://redsports.sg/2009/03/02/redsportsv-b-division-basketball/

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3th places for 100m and 400m and 4th place for 1500m.
I'm rather tired today especially for today for no particular reason,slept late last night?
Got to rush up on my D&T journal real fast,i got my ideas and i need to write it down.

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The sky is so vast and blue
Clouds are aimlessly floating in the sky.
They get bigger and bigger when they eat the water vapour
Rain will fall when they can't handle the weight
Droplets fall onto the ground quickly
When the sun is out,the cycle starts all over again =]

I'm just talking crap,haha!

Went for training today.It rain today again and we had to do physical as execpted.Particpating on 3 on 3 matches with wiston and si wei on the 8th march.Alvin wanted me to particpate on another 3on3 at bugis on 20-21march but must paid $20.I'm seriously spending a lot of money recently.'O' level is really stressing me out,haiis.
Oh yeah i qualify for the B boys x100m semi-finals
,hope i can get into final ^^

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